Putting my defenses up.
Ku keraskan hati.
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love.
Karena aku tidak ingin jatuh cinta.
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack.
Jika aku jatuh cinta, ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
Never put my love out on the line.
Tidak pernah meletakkan cintaku keluar dari garis.
Never said yes to the right guy.
Tidak pernah mengakatan ‘iya’ pada pria yang tepat.
Never had trouble getting what I want.
Tidak pernah ada masalah untuk mendapatkan apa yang ku inginkan.
But, when it comes to you I’m never good enough.
Tapi, saat menyangkut dirimu, aku tidak pernah cukup lihai.
When I don’t care.
Saat aku tidak peduli.
I can play him like a Ken doll.
Aku bisa memainkan dia seperti boneka Ken.
Won’t wash my hair.
Tidak ingin mencuci rambutku.
Then make him bounce like a basketball.
Kemudian membuatnya memantul seperti bola basket.
But you make me wanna act like a girl.
Tapi kamu membuatku ingin bertingkah seperti seorang gadis.
Paint my nails and wear high heels.
Mengecat kuku-ku dan mengenakan sepatu hak tinggi.
Yes you make me so nervous that I just can’t hold your hand.
Ya, kau membuatku gugup hingga aku tidak dapat menggenggam tanganmu.
You make me glow.
Kau membuatku berbinar.
But I cover up, won’t let it show.
Tapi aku menyembunyikannya, takkan ku tunjukkan.
So, I’m putting my defenses up.
Maka ku keraskan hati.
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love.
Karena aku tidak ingin jatuh cinta.
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack.
Jika aku jatuh cinta, ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
Never break a sweet for the other guys.
Tidak pernah keringatan untuk pria lain.
When you come around I get paralyzed.
Ketika kau datang, aku menjadi linglung.
And every time, I try to be myself.
Dan setiap waktu, aku mencoba manjadi diriku sendiri.
It comes out wrong like a cry for help.
Yang tampak malah seperti tangisan minta tolong.
It’s just not fair
. Ini sungguh tidak adil.
Pain’s more trouble than love is worth.
Pedih lebih banyak masalah daripada indahnya cinta.
I gasp for air.
Aku megap-megap untuk udara.
It feels so good, but you know it hurts.
Ini terasa nyaman, tapi kau tahu ini juga menyakitkan.
But you make me wanna act like a girl.
Tapi kamu membuatku ingin bertingkah seperti seorang gadis.
Paint my nails and wear perfume.
Mengecat kuku-ku dan memakai parfum.
For you make me so nervous that I just can’t hold your hand.
Karena kau, membuatku gugup hingga aku tidak dapat menggenggam tanganmu.
You make me glow.
Kau membuatku berbinar.
But I cover up, won’t let it show.
Tapi aku menyembunyikannya, takkan ku tunjukkan.
So, I’m putting my defenses up.
Maka ku keraskan hati.
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love.
Karena aku tidak ingin jatuh cinta.
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack.
Jika aku jatuh cinta, ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
The feelings got lost in my lungs.
Perasaan itu hilang di paru-paruku.
They’re burning, I’d rather be numb.
Perasaan itu terbakar, aku lebih baik mati rasa.
And there’s no one else to blame.
Dan tidak ada orang laing untuk disalahkan.
So scared I take off and I run.
Begitu menakutkan, aku pergi dan berlari.
I’m flying too close to the sun.
Aku terbang terlalu dekat dengan matahari.
And I burst into flames.
Dan aku terbakar menjadi nyala api.
You make me glow.
Kau membuatku berbinar.
But I cover up, won’t let it show.
Tapi aku menyembunyikannya, takkan ku tunjukkan.
So, I’m putting my defenses up.
Maka ku keraskan hati.
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love.
Karena aku tidak ingin jatuh cinta.
If I ever did that, I think I’d have a heart attack.
Jika aku jatuh cinta, ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think I’d have a heart attack.
Ku pikir aku akan kena serangan jantung.
I think this song have a couple meanings, depending on how you look at it. One (not as likely of a meaning) is about a girl who tends to fall for troublemakers and guys that end up being horrible for her. They're the kind that want her become what they want her to be, by telling them what to wear, how to have their hair styled, how they act, etc. They don't respect her the way she should be respected. Even though she's comfortable around other guys and has no problem playing with their emotions a tiny bit when she doesn't have affectionate feelings towards them, as soon as the guy she's feeling for is around, she doesn't know what to do, is afraid to do anything, and just freezes. She's afraid of speaking up, fearing that something horrible would happen (as many girls in this situation would feel). She feels that this is happening again with her newest guy, and she decides to put her foot down and prevent herself from falling for the same trap. She tries to speak up and be her own self, but he thinks she wants more of this attention, and it comes out all wrong. She hates feeling that way, but she likes being attended to, being "cared" for, even if it's for the guy's benefit. She's determined not to fall in love with the guy though, because she knows it'll be doomed , seeing how he's treating her. She knows that she's the one that usually makes the mistake of staying with these losers, so she's trying to abstain from her usual routine.
The second meaning that i feel is more accurate is more simple. It's about a girl who loves to tease guys, mess around with their heads a little bit and doesn't have trouble being around them. She starts having feelings for a guy in particular, and it scares her a bit. She wants to dress up, gussy herself up and be more womanly for him, and wants to impress him. She starts feeling nervous and giddy around him, and when she tries to play it off and be her typical self, it backfires and she falls all over him. She hates feeling so defenseless like that, so she's trying her best to keep her distance and not fall for him. She seems like she's never been in love before, or that she has, but has been burned badly, and never wants to be hurt again. As the song keeps going though, she's feeling less and less able to contain herself., and eventually she can't help it anymore (i'm flying too close to the sun, and I burst into flames), and she's at her breaking point. I also get a sense though that she wants it all to happen a little bit, but she's terrified that her mind will end up backing out of the relationship, and that she's "scared she'll take off in a run" and screw it up. We don't know if she finally gives in, but we sense that she can't take anymore temptation. All we know is that if she indeed a heart attack, too overcome with emotion, defenselessness, passion and fear all at once.
